Circle of Trust

For those that do not know I have been obese my entire life. March of 2020 I was 258lbs which is the heaviest i can remember being. Food has always been an outlet, growing up my mom was never shy about eating what and when she wanted, which she then transferred those habits to us. She basically ate herself to death at 57 years old and i vowed to not go out the same way. We all have goals, I’m still not happy with my body or with my mental state. I have fat boy syndrome where i still think every article of clothing fits me tight or i just don’t feel comfortable without a shirt on. I know ill get there, i know i still have a lot of work to do, and will continue to do, essentially until i die. It sucks and its a lot of work but i won’t go back to that SadClown life. I refuse to go buy bigger clothes after buying smaller sizes now.

Today was supposed to be a recovery day because of IPC week 2 however i was the only one that actually did the workout so i thought to myself, “why am i lowering my standard? lets run” As i was prepping to lead QSource there was a statement that stated (paraphrasing) the virtuous leader will not lower or adjust his standard in order to maintain consistency. What type of example am i setting for myself and my peers if we take a day off at a workout? I have to get up between 330-4 to tend to my 2.1 before F3, I’m not getting up to NOT break a sweat. If i’m at a workout i’m going hard. Whatever your goals are, don’t let your foot off the gas you never know how much road you have left. Lets pray..